*Spoiler: This one is a little long and personal (but oh-so-good and soulful).
When the woman who helped guide you home to yourself (more than once), warmly invites you to write a blog about it — well, you write a blog about it. Gabrielle Bernstein has done so much for me through her work, and I am brought to tears when I see how the universe, and my willingness to show up, put me in the way of her magic.
In a recent blog, My Biggest Lesson in Trust + Openness Yet (my most well received and personal so far), I spoke a little bit to how Gabby is basically the entire reason I am here writing on this platform today. The girl jump-started the awakening to my truth and the becoming of who I am now. I enrolled into B-School through her because of that deep connection I have to her and her work.
It has been somewhere around 2 years since the day I first stumbled upon Gabby’s youtube channel and as of 3 days ago I was able to speak to her over the phone. Mind = Blown. Nice teamwork, Universe.
Earlier I mentioned being ‘put in the way’ of Gabby’s magic. This philosophy of mine, “Put yourself in the way of magic,” that I have mentioned here on Spirit & Soul has come to intensely lead my life and more specifically, this year of my life. In a step to open things up for myself in the biggest way possible this year, I told myself 2017 would be my year of ‘No Holding Back’. (This became my reason for joining B-School, and for joining with Gabby!)
I did this for a few reasons, but the foundation of the shift was to help obliterate as much of my self limiting filter as possible. Holding back is self limiting, and I found that it kept me from putting myself in the way of the very magic I desired to experience and cultivate in my life.
So here I am, shaking from a mixture of excitement and anxiety while trying my best to stay grounded as Gabrielle Bernstein begins our first coaching call of the B-School 2017 season. Gabby gives the call in code to raise your hand just as a quick heads up for everyone, and I sort of lose control of myself (or take the deepest place of control I ever have, you decide) and raise my hand.
I later learned that I was SO nervous, because days before when we got a reminder email about the call I subconsciously and very deeply decided within myself that I was going to talk. And now I was experiencing the very thing I showed up for, because my line was unmuted and the space was opened for my voice to be heard, for me to be seen by someone I had wanted nothing more than to connect with.
Now, on the call Gabby helped me through some B-School blocks and was incredible. Though I must say, the intensity, growth, and overall experience that I personally had was so much more. Like 15 cherries on top. I had some beautiful epiphanies that day, and some personal philosophies were affirmed in a very personal and powerful way.
The reason I have been writing is because Gabby’s work showed me who I needed to be to live authentically and in my most powerful truth. Today I am writing because Gabby personally invited me to write authentically and from a place of service about my experience with her.
So here is what I gained, my dear readers. I hope with all my heart that you can take these ideas and mold them to cultivate your own experiences of light, beauty and wonder.
This experience was the scariest and most exciting thing I have ever done. Had I held back, I would not have been aligned with Gabby. Had I held back, I would’ve been denying the Universe of supporting me. Through my B-School journey I have been aligning myself with what I want in the biggest ways, and the Universe has had my back.
Just do it. The thing that scares you, the thing that you thought would never be possible for you, the thing that you knew you could do but still weren’t sure about, anything you find hesitation or fear towards. Just fucking do it. The worst that can happen is that Life would remind you that you are human and you still have growing to do. Just go for it, put yourself in the way of that magic you want to live. You get the results that you show up for.
I’m here sharing this because the experience was so moving for me, and I like sharing things 1,000x more when I believe they can help someone else too. That is why I write in the first place and even if I misplace the importance of that intention sometimes, it is the foundation of my being.
I want to help in any way I can. I want to support in any way I can support. I want to heal when I can heal and help others to do the same. I want to give light and compassion unconditionally. That’s why I am here. It has been in my bones since before I could acknowledge it that this is my job. It is my job to be on this path.
There you go guys. I write what is on my heart and intentionally or not, Gabby has brought me home to my deepest truths and most pure self yet again. Thank you, Gabby for being you and doing your work, because it has inspired and empowered me to explore, live, and continuously create my own version of that.